11.04.2006

Content. What?

Today i talked to my friend Amanda. She said something that perfectly fit the entire situation I feel that I'm in right now.
She said "I'm getting married. I'm going to live here and be a mom. I don't have a degree, I don't want to work. I'm going to be here forever and that's okay because that's what I want."
She is where she needs to be. Where am I? I am somewhere, and it's not necessarily where I want to be, but is it where God wants me to be?
I have it stuck in my head that I am getting out of here. But the more I want out, the more I feel like I cannot leave. I need to surrender my life to God before I can just get up and desert all of this.
I am not content.

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