These past few days have been out of control. Not physically, physically I look like a huge loner, but emotionally. I've been all over the place.
It started with some lonliness. which led to God revealing a lot about His plan for me through a convo with a new friend. From there it went to closure from a past relationship, who's door had been jammed open for 10 months- finally we were able to close it, gently. But it's closed and locked. From there I spend some much needed time with friends and got to see my family. At my grandmother's birthday party she had a stroke though, and she ended up going to the hospital. So I didnt' get to spend too much time with the family talking about anything really, but the incident brought us all together in a sense. My dad drove around his old neighborhood on the way to get the potato salad from my aunt's house. (Why did we need potato salad when grandma was in the hospital?) He showed us his old "stompin grounds" and where some of his friends' lived. It was a nice little reminiscient moment. My dad doesn't do that too often.
My uncle brought me back to school today. My grandma got flown to Toledo Ohio because she had bleeding in her head.. not sure how she's going to end up but I think she will be okay. I hope anyway. But my uncle brought me back to school and it was almost silent on the drive, until we got really close to school and he asked me if I ever watched the religious channel on TV. I said no, i dont have TV at school. He said he watched it, that he really liked the gospel music. That was somewhat bizzare for me to hear considering I'd never heard my uncle talk about religion except when using the Lord's name in vain. It was a clear reminder that a lot of people know who God is, and they are in fact drawn to Him. Espeically in times of need. The only purpose I may have is to be the connector between their desire and their first step towards God's outstretched arms. I feel good about that. If that's the only purpose I'll ever serve, and I serve it well- I would feel like I fulfilled a full life.